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"God grant me the Serenity to accept the things that I cannot change, The Courage to change the things I can, and the Wisdom to know the Difference"...... For me, in this time in my life, this Serenity Prayer is so profound.
I may have not made all of right choices in my life but hopefully I have learned from them. Most decisions I believe are made up of one of two emotions driving them, One is Love and One is Fear and up until now a lot of my decisions have been based upon avoiding fear. Fear of rejection, fear of abandonment, fear of what someone else will think about me, etc. This I have determined, is no way to live a happy life. I have to do my thing and let everyone else do theirs, without judgement.
This post may not be what you are expecting, but I want to share with you what has been happening in my life since I left Austin in early October to start my adventure.
On October 10th, I left Austin, Texas after spending just over a year getting to know my Big Brother and his beautiful wife after nearly 30 years apart. What an amazing time it was in Austin filling a lot of gaps in my life. They opened their home, their hearts and I am forever grateful. Words can not describe how healing it was for me.
While in Austin, working at one of most sacred places on the planet,, Casa De Luz Center for Intregal Studies was the funnest and most rewarding jobs I have ever had. This place is magical. Helping people heal themselves with healthy, clean and balanced food and education of lifestyle.
On October 10th, I took a flight to San Jose, California where I spent eleven days with my father for the first time after nearly thirty five years apart. On October 21st I headed to San Fransisco and started at Fishermans Wharf and I walked 120 miles along the pacific coast highway and arrived in Santa Cruz on the 30th of October. I then took a bus from Santa Cruz to San Jose to spend more time with my father. I stayed with him until the 16th of November. I then took a bus again to Santa Cruz to continue my walk , I walked from one of the last standing and operational boardwalks in the world and again walked intending to arrive in San Diego sometime in February. I walked from Santa Cruz Boardwalk and I arrived in Castroville 3 days later ( The Artichoke Capital of the World)
For two nights on my walk I experienced my first freezing rain storm. I froze to the bone and learned quickly that I do not have the right equipment.
My hair is growing really long really fast and I am letting it go wild for a while. I have lost about thirty pounds and I feel invigorated. Tired and perhaps a bit overloaded with emotions, but in good spirits.
After arriving in Castroville, having decided not to walk any further until I get new equipment, I took a bus to Salinas, CA. The people at the Victory Mission were incredibly hospitable and offered me a warm place to stay and diiner to boot for two days before I decided to head back to San Jose.
My Dad lives at a place called Hilltop Manor and they have rules that allow me to stay a maximum of 14 days per year and since I reached my max( (thank you Faye) I have stayed at this place called City Team Ministries for the past several days. Great, kind people.
Spending a total of about thirty days with my Father after no communication for over thirty five years has been an amazing eye & heart opening experience. He was straightfoward and we spoke frankly and openly.. Even the hardest questions that I have yearned to ask only him all these years.
We indeed have similar personalities. I am no longer confused as to where I get some of my inherent trates.
That said, I have new zeal, a new lease on life, thank you Dad for opening your heart, sharing your stories and welcoming me back into your life after all these years. It has been life altering to be able to reconnect with you over the past couple of months. I hope we continue to learn from one another.
I have decided to regroup and decompress from all the emotions of the past several weeks. A good friend has offered me a place to rest and get centered. And figure out what is the next step. The beauty of this adventure is that I am charting it out as I go and I have the freedom to choose whichever course that moves me.
Total walking distance so far on this journey has been 160 miles,,,,The people that I have met along the way, the love and compassion is so real,,,,, to be continued...... I feel accomplished, successful, happy, and free. And I love my life.
I love you all so much for your encouragement and support. I will post again soon..........